Fifteenth

assalamualaikum and hi. 

hi guys~ it's 29th of December today. another 2 days and hello 2019. time fly fast huh? 

it's been a great year, I must say. too many ups and downs yet I'm still here today surviving and enjoying my holiday. alhamdulillah. all praise to Him. I never knew 2018 gonna be an exciting years with full of new experiences. well, I do expect some event such as experiencing LM and fyp but I didn't know that I'll get to go overseas this year. alhamdulillah :)

lets reminisce a bit shall we? 

I started off my 2018 alone in hostel since it's actually study week which means all my housemates and roommate are going back to their hometown. I spend my time with watching drama awards and some revision. comes exam, semester break and back to campus for my 6th semester. my last sem before going to LM. 

I must say it semester 6 was a hell. full of assignments, club commitments, fyp, preparation for LM and the list goes on. not to forget about how your teammates gives shit on group work and so on. not everyone but there's always someone right? hahahaha. I cried so hard when doing my first three chapters of fyp. rejected by SV for three times to not knowing how to do it properly and get upset because I'm confuse with everything. 

I still remember the day when I met my SV, a month after she gives me task to search anything related to my topics. yet, I did nothing. padan muka dah kena maki. well, I do deserve it since there's another 4 weeks before our proposal defense yet I did nothing. given only 1-2 weeks to finish chapter 2 and 3, I did not get enough sleep. get tired? took a nap in front of the laptop. hungry? maggi since going to cafe consume time. I visits library more since I love the environment plus got air condition hihihi. ahhhh, when my SV approved all those 3 chapters, I feel like wanted to smile all day. you do feel some satisfaction because all your hard work pays. all thanks to Him and also Ma. 

preparation for LM? well, KPD II was all about macro and micro teaching so, yeah all of us are busy with finding and going to any school to do the macro teaching. finding school for LM also gives all of us a hard time since our faculty only limit one person for one school which is very unfair actually because it's really hard to find schools. expenses during LM and all those small things but gives a big impact if doing it all alone. but nevertheless, we did it and manage to get together eventho we're in different schools. 

a big thanks to my school in both Malaysia and Indonesia for giving me the opportunities to gain new experience and helping me throughout my LM's journey. I know I'm hard to handle but thank you for accepting me. my bad for not being the best. 

going to Indonesia for LM has always been my dream with one of my friend. both of us applied for the same district but because of our course, I went to Solo and she went to Semarang. another friend of mine did not pass through the interview but I know she had done her best. I also wanna thank all staffs of UMS for giving the best hospitality to us for those past 2 months. eventho I'm far away from my own family, they make me feel like I can always rely on them. my friends from SMP, I do miss you guys and thank you for being friends with me. I hope we can meet again one fine day. my pak kepala sekolah, guru pamong, students, thank you so much :)

and oh! not to forget D for making me experiencing the feels again. you may not know this but you gave my happiness when staying in Solo for two months. eventho it comes with a package of a torn heart but it's okay. I'll think of it as a process of growing up. well, I do and still think of you sometimes but time will heal everything. hope so! :)

last but not least, thank you to Ma and Abah for being the best parents ever. from supporting me with money, life advice, love and everything. a word not anything could describe my heart right now for all those things you did for me but thank you Ma. thank you Abah. I love you guys a lot and sorry for not being the best daughter to you. I'll try my best for you guys. Insha Allah. millions thanks to my other family members to for helping me throughout this year. 

not to forget my Odiesther, friends and batch mates. thank you guys! 

wishes for 2019? 

I pray to Him to give happiness to all of us in dunia and akhirat. for long lasting health to rezeki. insha Allah amin. I also pray to Him for giving my second brother a good health and may he heal from his sickness. Allahumma amin. 

so, that's a wrap for 2018. next post, it would be 2019 already. enjoy your new year guys! 

with that, 

goodbye 2018. thank you for being strong. 

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