Thirtheenth

assalamualaikum and hi. 

it's my second week here in IN for the teaching practice program. wanna hear the truth? okay pat. spill. 

I wanna go home so bad. I miss Malaysia. I miss my boys and girls from my previous school. Missing my family and friends and all those good foods in Malaysia. it's not that there's nothing good happening here. just that, it's not the same. ohhhh maybe some will says that it's only been 2 weeks, cheer up! you'll find something fun there sooner or later. man, I only have for about 2 months here and tell me how can I be so sure that I'll be enjoying my time here since these past 2 weeks feels like hell? seriously? I need space. 

I know that it sounds like I'm exaggerating things right now but this is what me and my friends feel. we're trying really hard to understand the culture. the process. the system yet there's nobody that's willing to guide us. yaaa, malah dipaksa gitu! huhhh

I didnt know it was this hard. I didnt know that this is what my seniors have gone through. I wanna quit and go back to my old school but I know it will not happen. urghhhhh

Fatin. 

bear with it. another 5 more weeks and you'll be done with all these shits. dont bother what other people talk about you and how they see you because you know yourself better. culture? tradition? if it's better for yourself then do it. if you feel that something's wrong then don't do it. goodluck, pat. I know you can survive this. I know you can handle this. this is what you choose and you need to do this. love yourself more pat. no stress okay? much love <3 <3 <3 

fatinCullen