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assalamualaikum and hi. 

ever wondered how it feels like to be in someone else's shoes? on how they adapt with their lifestyle and how they live it? which kind of lifestyle have you ever wanted for your life? of course some or majority of us wanted enough wealth to spend even for the next 100 years. me too. 

I've always look at them. those rich kids. what kind of food they eats. what kinds of brand they use and of course how much they spent for shopping. I've always wanted to be like them. I want to go shopping without needed to look at the price tag. I do. I really do. 

just today. I dont know why I cried hard like there's no tomorrow after watching a short movie about a poor kid that live with his mother. his father had already passed away. to be honest, it's just the same story that all of us would've guess. he'll be successful in the future. yes, he do. just that, in the process of becoming a success person, there's just so much things that he had to go through. I dont know why this time it caught me. I felt so sad that I starts to sob and cry really hard. 

the way his teacher treats him. his friends. yet he endured it well with his mom's support and love. he works really hard to get his own sport shoes but in the end his shit friends throw it away. I swear I've never been mad like this before when watching. I feel like wanted to punch his friends for him. I wanted to yell at his teacher for not giving him time to explain why he's late and instead she punish him and downgrading him. lowering his self confidence. oh god how I wish I was in the movie just now to help that poor little boy. 

one thing I learn from the short movie was to never treat your student like that. help them even when they look like they dont need it because you know what student can hide their true feelings really well. I promise to myself in the future, if I ever had the chance to become teacher, I'll truly never be that kind of teacher that do not even have any common sense to help her students nor to even have the effort to ask why. I promise myself. 

I dont know why these past day I dont have any mood nor energy to interact with other people. I get annoyed easily and tend to hate everything revolving around me. I dont get it how people can be so happy that they're laughing all the time. I also dont get it how can two different people be together and not be bored with each other. 

nevertheless, another 3 papers and I'm truly done for semester 5. I hope everything went well for my last papers and cant wait to be back home. 

fatinCullen