Sixth

assalamualaikum and hi.

it's already 4th week for this semester. more assignments, club activities, problems and tears in the first four weeks. I'm not even aware that it's already October. and today, it's Effa's birthday! Happy Birthday dearest Gips! I love you to the moon and back! ❤

next week gonna be the last week for the half of this semester. this is because we're gonna have mid sem break earlier than usual. I'm not going back home because flight's ticket are so damn expensive that I cant even afford it. if and only if it's less than 100$ *sigh*

so, what's up? I just got back from a debate competition yesterday. sad news is, I didnt even get into pra suku which is very disappointing because last year, my team managed to get into suku akhir but not for this year. I blamed myself for this because I've made some mistake during the 4th session of debate. my emotion took controls rather than rationality. felt bad towards my partner in team but what more can I do except learning to do better next time? 

the good news is, I can feel that my performances are getting better and better. eventho some says that I didnt perform well like I did last time but I've felt some kind of satisfaction this time. a small satisfaction that keep telling me that I should never give up in this field. different from last time, I even considered to quit because of my bad and horrible performances. I know that it's just a small improvement but I'm still happy. more to improve and practice. I know it's not gonna be a flowery road but I hope at the end I'll be able to smile from all those thorns and hardship. Ameen to that. 

I guess that's all for this time. I'll write more in the future! 

x o x o

fatinjCullen