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Assalamualaikum and hi.

Yesterday, I’ve encountered some sad event that I thought all this time I’ve been too greedy with what I wants in my life. I couldn’t even image how selfish I’m compared to that poor old lady.

I went to shop for some groceries yesterday before fetching my mom and cousin from school. It all seems like a normal day for me until I went to pay at the counter. I saw an old lady rummaging her purse. She’s like searching for something where I bet she’s searching for her money. While her groceries are already in the plastic bag. All she had to do is pay but she didn’t or, she cant.

I can see few RM 1 notes inside her purse. Maybe around RM 2 and some cards, paper, etc. she’s been rummaging for some time until she finally notice me behind her waiting to pay as well. She looks flustered then said to the cashier that she’ll come back later and asking to keep her things as it is. Then off she goes.

What saddens me is that all she wanted to buy at that time is just a baby’s formula. I was very sad seeing that. There’s like 3 box of baby’s formula and cost for about RM50. All I can think at that time was how hard her life must have been that she couldn’t even afford to pay for the baby’s formula? Where will she got the money to pay for it? How about her baby at home? Crying out of hunger? I tear up a bit. Thankfully I was still at the shop if not I’ll cry a river. Really.

Got back to the car and start thinking. Why I’m not even grateful with my life right now? Why I keep on ranting on how I don’t have enough money to buy something that is unnecessary? Why I keep on saying that I wanted to eat far more expensive and delicious foods like a buffet or something from top hotels would serve. I felt sorry for the old lady.

I wanted to help. Really do. But all I have at that time is only RM10 while I too have some groceries that I need to buy for my family. God. I keep on blaming myself why I didn’t help her back then. Until now.

Well okay, I do think she may have a solid reason why she can’t pay at the moment.

1)      She forgot her money at the house/car.

2)      She didn’t have enough money that she wanted to go to the bank to withdraw some.

3)      She thought she has the money but when she arrived at the shop and wanted to pay, the money was gone. (maybe someone took it)

4)      She’s just crazy that she wanted to play with the cashier.

It may or not be for the first 3 reasons. But for number 4 I don’t think that is the answer because by her look, she really look like she’s worried and flustered. Man, I cant forget her face L

 I pray to Him, to give the old lady a blessing and help for her and her family. I hope she really do come back to get the baby’s formula for the sake of her baby or maybe her grandchild. Amiin.

Since, there’s still foods on the table and I can still laugh and smile with my family, I should be thankful and not being greedy anymore. what kind of privilege I have to rant when there’s more unfortunate people out there that should be given the opportunity to live well? I must be stupid to feel like this. Nevertheless, I hope everything goes well for me, my family and my friends.

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